I Just Can’t See Myself
I always proofread my children’s projects before they turn them in. Inevitably, there are always spelling and punctuation mistakes to find. I usually circle them and then get them to correct the mistakes. My husband will often give me items he has written so I can look over them as well. Like the kids, I usually fix the mistakes and give it back to him.
Often times when I am reading articles on the Internet, I do the same thing. I find mistakes. Whether they are on a street sign, in a church bulletin or the newspaper, I just see misspellings and things that need to be corrected.
The other day I wrote a blog and looked over it for any spelling mistakes or punctuation errors. I mean I am not the best editor in the world but some things are just plain obvious, ya know? Well, I didn’t see any so I posted my blog and once it went up I read it again. It’s kind of a proud moment when you hit that button and share your thoughts with the world.
As I read through my blog post again, I noticed a spelling mistake. I couldn’t believe that I didn’t catch it. I quickly fixed it and then returned to the page again to make sure that it was corrected. As I read through it again, I noticed another error. I had left a word out accidentally. Astonished that I had not caught that one either, I quickly corrected it and then went back to the blog to make sure it was fixed.
Then it really hit home to me as I read through my blog one more time, my blog post was filled with lots of mistakes. I had punctuation errors, spelling errors, I had left words out, used other words incorrectly, and the like. You name it and I had done it. My 5th grade English teacher would not have been very happy. I just didn’t know how I made all of these mistakes without catching it. Until………
What was the problem? I found it so easy to point out what was wrong with everyone else’s issues, but couldn’t see my own. No matter how many times I initially looked over my blog myself, I never saw the mistakes that were so easily seen when I looked at other people’s things. I was somehow blinded to my own issues; I had skipped over them.
Why was this the case? Well, I remember something Joyce Meyer once said. She said, “We judge others based upon their actions but we judge ourselves based on our intentions.” In other words, the same scrutiny that I was looking at everyone else with, I wasn’t willing to look at myself with. I knew what I “meant to” say. I knew what I “wanted to” say. So, in my mind, that is what I DID say, even though it was wrong.
It is amazing how I can fine-tooth comb someone else’s life but not my own. I give myself a break because I know what I “meant to” say or “thought” I said but then when it comes to others, I don’t give them that same leniency. Funny how that is, isn’t it?
So what will help this? Well for starters, what if in my life I gave others the same leniency I gave myself? What if I was just willing to skip over their errors and ignore them? I don’t just mean in spelling mistakes and papers, I mean in life itself. This really has little to do with spelling mistakes and more to do with tendencies I think we all have, to find fault with and critique others.
Next, what if I allow someone else to proofread the pages of my life privately before I hit the “post” button publically. There is so much I just can’t see unless someone else is invited in to help. Had I have had someone proofread my blog, they would have caught the errors that I didn’t. They would have seen what I couldn’t. They could have given me some direction when I was lost in the belief that my misspellings and punctuation errors didn’t exist. Sometimes, I just can’t see myself.
Now what will you do? Will you look for errors in this post or will you read your own life’s pages?
Did the words I write resonate with you at all? Have you ever been like me?